my mind's wandering...

..but I do not know where or why. Had I asked why a few days ago, I would probably had an answer as there had been a lot of things happening in my family lately, but when I stopped for a moment now, I couldn't hold on to my thoughts properly.

I know I need some time alone to figure things out. However I am not comfortable with the way things are now, and I don't know what will change that.

I love solitude, but now I'm just lonely, and I have been that for a long time. How does a two-some become lonesome? And how can I stop being lonely, without becoming a we?