Crackling?

This gorgeous man has given me a feeling that I've been walking on my toes, trying to keep everything as new, just to keep it longer. However, after a blow out on Saturday, this turned out not to be the case.

So now I'm wondering - where do we go from here? We can't go back to how it was, since that was clearly running over both of us, but I don't know what we'll do from here.

When starting a new relationship it is easy to forget that you don't know each others odd ends, and that things you thought you'd never see again, ends up on your plate. But for the first time I've come to realize that it might not be only me who feels this way.

As I've been thinking about my previous relationships, and doing my best to compare them, I've come to that I've been very lucky. I've met adaptable, changing men, who believed my word to be true, and who really has seen my side of it. But maybe they have just pushed theirs aside. Maybe I'm so used to getting my way that I forgot how to give others a go. And if that is so, I have to figure out a way to let him in before he doesn't want to any more.

The question is, do I want to? Do I see us in the future? Is he who I'm looking for?